I am totally and completely in love with Matt. OMG. I've never felt so blessed. I never understood why I was put on this earth... and now I know why. I am here to love and cherish Matt.

I am the luckiest girl in the world.

Tricia told me you can't get pregnant the first time you have sex. I hope she's right. I was supposed to start my period today.

JUST KIDDING!

The party hasn't even happened yet; it's tonight. And I totally know you can get pregnant the first time you have sex. I mean, that's like totally what happened to Franklin's girlfriend. The only safe way to have sex is standing up. That's just because of gravity. Duh.

So I have a totally huge confession to make: I definitely plan on sleeping with CB at my party. But what really makes me nervous is that he'll find out that I'm a virgin.

I mean, I've been lying about it since I was fifteen when Tricia lost her V Card. I just couldn't let her beat me at something AGAIN ya know? So I totally made up this story about losing it on a boat in the French Riviera over spring break our freshman year. Oops.

Maybe he'll be so big that he'll just be used to the, ya know, tightness? Or maybe he'll think I'm like a total goddess.

So this is my first post. Yay. I'm super-excited to start something with all of my friends! I'm not really sure why Beethoven's on here tho. Like no one likes him, ya know?

I just wonder what it would be like for someone to not like me, cuz ever since I got my teeth fixed, ditched the geeky glasses and got a new haircut... like, everyone likes me. It's not that I'm being totally judged by my looks or anything. Cuz people really love how much I totally care about them and stuff. I may be popular but I'm totally the girl that everyone likes. I can't say the same for my BFF Tricia.

My parents left for Bali this week. I'm super pissed. Once again my mom and step dad just totally leave me here with nothing. There's like a shitload of booze in the house tho... I can't promise it'll be here when they get back! I'm gonna throw the best party EVER!

I seriously hope that when I throw my party CB comes/cums. Haha! I've been looking for an excuse to totally jump his bones and getting totally plastered will get rid of any shame! I'm gonna wear the cutest, sluttiest little outfit. OMG. I'm so excited. I hope Frieda Fatass comes too but only because she's totally entertaining and Tricia and I know each other so well that like, sometimes we run out of things to say if she's not there to talk about.  But I think all besties are like that, ya know?